4th of July | year 2012

So I've been wanting to jot down my memories and thoughts of my pregnancy with Calvin for a while now and haven't because I didn't know how to fuse 40 weeks of information into one blog post... So it'll probably be a couple of them. I'm going to try and Not make a novel out of this. But I'm not makin any promises :).  Here lies a very special 40 weeks of my life. 

Ps. Small disclaimer... If you are under the age of... Well... Mature... Then you may not want to read this post :)

Let's start with the 4th of July in 2012 how bout? I woke up from a nightmare that morning where I had started my period. When you have been trying to conceive for 4 months already with no luck, those types of dreams become nightmares. I was 2 days late already, which was a good sign but I had also been 3 days late the month before with a negative pregnancy test. Normally I'm never late... Only when I don't want to be. Lucky me ;) 

I had been pregnant before and miscarried at almost 12 weeks. That time we got pregnant in the first month so it was really hard for it to be taking so long this time. But It was indeed tragic, losing our baby. And maybe someday ill blog about how awful it was. But not on this particular day. 

Anywho, I knew what it was supposed to feel like in the first days of being pregnant, because I had been there before, and I did indeed feel like it! Tender boobs, emotions all over the place, and being late. So far so good. But I didn't have a pregnancy test and I didn't want to go to the store to get one because it was a Holliday. I avoid the store at all costs on holidays. Plus I didn't want to be disappointed on the 4th of July! So Tyler and I went about our day. 

When my parents left for a vacation that morning and I was so worried they were going to crash their car and die that I had to drive clear across town to see them before they left, I knew I needed to take a test. I was being a little ridiculous. So I got home, told Tyler I needed to take one. At the time we lived next to our good friends Travis and Megan Martin and I knew she had a test, so I texted her and asked if I could borrow it haha. She was over in ten seconds literally already opening it for me I bet! 

I had taken a million of them by this point. But I was so nervous I had her and Tyler yelling instructions at me. "Point it down" and "turn it the other way" were yelled at me. Well I finally did it, left it on the counter and turned to Tyler with my heart racing. I took a quick peek and it was turning!! Turning into one line!! And then a SECOND LINE!! What we had there on that counter was a positive pregnancy test. We. Were. Thrilled. Months of being devastated, a D&C, and 4 months of trying. We had finally started over again. I wept tears of P U R E joy on Tyler's shoulder (well more like rib cage... He's a foot taller than me haha) and we were so happy. This was the start of a very special journey for us ❤️. 

                 Here ya have it :)

 Later that night watching fireworks. Nothing but happiness on our faces :)

I do... I mean yes | W e d d I n g D a y

J U N E 25, 2010

I woke up at 3:30 am to my alarm clock. Oh my gosh today's the day!! Showered, did my makeup, my brother in laws sister Kayla lived in salt lake and came to my hotel to do my hair. It turned out perfect :) 

I sent a text to Tyler telling him not to forget our wedding bands :) 

6:45 and it's time to leave! I rode with my parents to the temple. It was only 5 minutes away and it seemed like the longest car ride of my life haha. 

When we got there and Tyler found me, we seemed like little kids not knowing what was going on. We just kept looking at each other smiling :) when we were finally dressed, there was only one thing left to do before we got married. My most favorite part. The part I had been waiting for forever, and the reason why I chose to be married in the Salt Lake temple. Our escorts took us to the celestial room where Tyler and I sat and talked and enjoyed each other's company. The room was mind blowingly beautiful. So perfect. We probably say in there for about 20 minutes. 

We were the first sealing of the day. I loved it because they weren't in a rush to get us out of there. Everyone told me not to get married there because they rushed you through and you didn't get to enjoy it. Not the case with us luckily. 

Our sealer sat us down outside the sealing room and asked if we had any questions. We said no. He then reminded us to not say "I do" but to say "yes". We nodded and walked inside the room. 

It was one of the happiest sights I've ever seen. Every person I cared about was in that room. And  mostly every person in that room still plays a big role in my life today. They were all smiling at us as we walked in and I felt so loved :) 

It was a beautiful ceremony. I remember thinking how lucky I was to be marrying my perfect guy. Someone selfless, handsome, who would do anything to keep me happy, and who held the priesthood. 

At the end, you guessed it. Tyler said "I do" and the whole room was laughing. Hahaha that's Tyler for ya :) 

After the wedding we headed outside for pictures. And what do ya know at 10:00 in the morning it was 90 degrees outside. And my dress weighed 50 lbs it seemed. But we got through pictures :) 

 

We had our luncheon at the Joseph Smith building. The food was delicious. Honestly I don't even remember what it was... But it was good! I do remember the raspberry salad, and the raspberry lemonade. So good. 

Did I mention we got married on my moms birthday?? Well we did. So nice of her to share her day with us. 

         (The nice people at the JS building made her a birthday cake :)

Our reception was the next day so we stayed the night in Salt Lake that night. So the next few hours will be kept private haha ;) that night Tyler did take to the Roof at the JS building for dinner. The most P E R F E C T ending the the most P E R F E C T day. It seriously couldn't have gone better than it did. The beginning of our forever. 

Love you, boo ❤️. 

7

Calvin is seven months old!! Ahhh how did this happen!!! my baby is slowly (actually rather quickly) turning into NOT a baby anymore. And it makes me kinda sad because he's only seven months! He's a fast learner, that one is. 

At SEVEN months: 

Calvin is standing up to everything and anything. He actually started doing this at 6 ish months. It's even worse now because he isn't afraid to do it anywhere now, especially in the tub. He falls every time cause of the slippery-ness. It is his favorite thing to do these days. 

         (Always standing there after a nap with those big blue puppy dog eyes)

                (One handed mom!!)

Calvin still eats like it's his job! He wants anything you're eating, and gets super mad if he can't have it. Going out to dinner is not so fun anymore when we take him. We pretty much just get yelled at by him the whole time haha. It's actually pretty funny... And other people laugh too. I've never heard a baby yell so much! And when I am feeding him, between EVERY bite he yells because no one is fast enough to get that spoon up to his mouth. This babe is gonna make me go broke! 

He finally got his two bottom teeth the last couple weeks! Yahoo! I feel like he was teething for two months with nothing to show for it. But sadly, this also means the nursing has almost come to an end. I always said I'd keep going until I became a teething toy.... And that's what I've become. Hurts so bad. I'm only nursing about once a day now. But hey, 6 months was my goal so at least I made it this far right!? 

He tries to feed himself but the food usually gets stuck to his hand so he gets frustrated haha. He's figuring it out though! :)

We finally made the switch to size 3 diapers last week! He has his dad's bum (haha...did I just say that??) no bum! I guess I don't really have one either, but I'm short so it's not as weird as being 6.7 with no butt haha. 

You guys aren't going to believe me... But he took two steps last week. I was reading scriptures with my family and my sentence sounded something like this: "For behold I Sayeth unto you oh my gosh Calvin just took two steps!" Haha. I was the only one who saw it too. He was just trying to get from my chair to the bed spread without having to fall down and crawl. So he held his breath and took two quick steps to get there haha that little stinker. He hasn't done it again since though! Hopefully I have until at least 9 months before walking starts! 

A few of Cal's favorites: 

Being outside. Then and only then does he forget about his appetite all together. Kills me. 

Eating. 

Playing patty cake 

Going for jogs in the stroller

Snuggling 

His mom and dad :) 

My nephew Tyler 

His grandmas and grandpas 

His bottle and binky

Blankets to go to sleep with 

Elmo

Playing chase and hide n seek

This babe of ours is growing growing growing! My guess is he's just under 18 lbs. He is looking more and more like a Hansen every day people tell me. I agree of course, But he will always have some of his dad on his face! How we got a blue eyes blonde out of us, I'll never know haha. Sorry for the novel guys! I could talk about my little guy all day. 

Happy 7 months sweet baby Cal! It looks good on you!!